Tuesday, November 20, 2012

This week thus far...

Well kids the week I have been looking forward to for the past couple of months is finally here. Thanksgiving is in 2 days and marks the start of a 5 day weekend for me. (No work, no school, no responsibility, no craziness) This Saturday at noon me and my best friend will pack up The Lone Carlo and drive 4 hours to Columbus Ohio for a two night stay at a hotel that has a fireplace in our room. The occasion is the Aerosmith concert this coming Sunday November 25th. Like a moron I bought the Wheels Up package once again (spending an ungodly amount of money) so I can have a seat on the catwalk and will meet Steven Tyler and Joe Perry once more.

I have fussed for the past 2 months trying to buy/figure out what I will wear to the show and I have narrowed it down to one fabulous dress...and a few backup outfit ideas if I throw a fit and change my mind last minute. Yesterday I had to have The Lone Carlo repaired because the Intake Manifold Gasket was leaking and it wasn't safe to drive to Columbus without the repair. ($750 more on the ole Capital One card) Freaking bites, but at least I know the car is road safe now.

I have also this week finally finished reading Aerosmith's autobiography "Walk This Way." I just never got around to reading the thing until now, the chapters are really stinkin' long and it's made up of a butt load of people's random snippets that take a long time to read because everyone has their own style of writing and you have to switch back and forth and try to make sense of it all. The book just continued to confirm that it is a miracle from God that those 5 guys are even alive today with the crazy lives they've lived, mainly the stupid amount of drugs they've done.

Now that I have finished that book, I have moved on to the book that I was more interested in reading in the first place. I started reading on Sunday Mia Tyler's book: "Creating Myself - How I Learned That Beauty Comes In All Shapes, Sizes and Packages, Including Me." I was interested to read the book because Mia is first off one of Steven Tyler's gorgeous daughters but more so that she is a successful plus size model that is confident and comfortable in her own skin.  I have always struggled with being overweight in varying degrees since I was about 11 years old. There are few things I have ever wanted more than to be thin or at the very least a normal sized girl, and not being able to get there has been hard for me.  So hearing from anyone else that has had that experience/struggle and has a good attitude about it/accepts it is something I need to encounter more often.  Also I knew that Mia was mainly raised by her mother that was sort of crazy and she was forced to grow up a lot sooner than a kid should... I definitely identify with that. Even though I had just started reading this on Sunday I am almost done with the book, impressive since I have been trying to finish the Aerosmith book for months now, starting and stopping and all. Because Mia is a plus sized model she is looked at as a role model of sorts for young girls who are struggling with body image, weight issues and accepting themselves. Also she has like her mother and father battled drug usage and suicide as well. So she used to blog on her Myspace and interact with young girls that needed advice, a friend, whatever. Here is a blog post she titled "Let It Go"

Let It Go!

There are people who can walk away from you
and hear me when I tell you this
when people can walk away from you
Let them walk.

I don't want you to try to talk another person into
Staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring
about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you.
I mean hang up the phone.

When people can walk away from you, let them walk.
Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

People leave you because they are not jointed to you.
And if they are not jointed to you, you can't make them stay. Let them go.

And it doesn't mean that they are a bad person, it
just means that their part in your story is over. And
you've got to know when people's part in your story is
over so that you don't keep trying to raise the dead.

You've got to know when it's dead. You've got to know
when it's over. Let me tell you something:

If you are holding on to something that doesn't belong
to you and was never intended for your life, then you
need to... LET IT GO!

If you are holding on to past hurts and pains...

If someone can't treat you right, love you back, and
see your worth... LET IT GO!

If someone has angered you...LET IT GO!

If you are holding on to some thoughts of evil and revenge...

If you are involved in a wrong relationship or addiction...

If you are holding on to a job that no longer meets
your needs or talents...LET IT GO!

If you have a bad attitude...LET IT GO!

If you keep judging others to make yourself feel better

If you're stuck in the past....LET IT GO!

If you're struggling with the healing of a broken relationship...

If you keep trying to help someone who won't even 
try to help themselves...LET IT GO!

If you're felling depressed and stressed...LET IT GO!

Let the past be the past.
Forget the former things.

~Mia Tyler

Since I have dealt a lot with hurt from people replacing, leaving and betraying me ...this is something I needed to read and re-read. I have a lot of faults as a person/friend and am quite aware of them. I have never been able to really kick being negative and complaining about my life and constantly putting myself down. I've always to a certain degree struggled with depression ever since I was a kid, so at times I am a downer to be around. I tend to get my feelings hurt easily, even if I realize I shouldn't be feeling that way and I know people/friends in general don't want to be around someone like that because it rubs off on them. And I tend to always have a current interest that I get overly excited about to the point of obsessions, it seems since I was a kid it's been that way. Usually in form of celebrities.... over the years; Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson, Johnny Depp, The Backstreet Boys Steven Tyler, Aerosmith in general and the list goes on. People get sick of hearing me talk about these things.  I do have good things about my personality, I mean I have a great sense of humor and love to laugh and am easily amused but I know I'm not an easy person to love. I suppose this is why it takes me forever to open up to people and really be myself around people, because once I do, it isn't long until people realize they don't like me and go find other friends to hang with.

 I know that my ultimate advice/counsel comes from the Bible...what God has to say about everything including my life. But it is just refreshing to read someone else who has went through some similar things share what she had learned/ is learning. So basically that is all I had to say for now. I'll be blogging later this week about the trip to Columbus Ohio, mainly the Aerosmith show/Meet & Greet and I will of course post pics of the outfit I end up wearing to the show. Until then, later.

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